If you’ve been following me for awhile then you know it is NO secret that my weight has been a constant yo-yo of struggle.


Right now as I am writing this I need to lose 100 lbs. and all the life coaches say that you must identify your WHY…so here is mine…


lol, kidding but not kidding.

It’s something I would LOVE to do but in my current shape it would NEVER happen and so it’s like the frosting on my WHY-CAKE.

My real why is my Witness.

Being a woman who is 100+ lbs. overweight for her body makes an easy target for calling out sin. And let me explain. I haven’t been a good steward of my body. I have created extremely bad emotional eating habits, sugar addictions, and even laziness.

I was witnessing to an old friend from high school and when I was explaining that his lifestyle went against God’s direct commands for us, he brought up my weight.

It was like a knife to the heart. And of course, we all sin and we all struggle but I have realized that my outward appearance – being someone who has struggled with her weight – is testimony to my struggle with sin. I want to overcome my emotional eating – turning to food instead of God for comfort, to numb feelings, etc.

And I can only speak for myself. I don’t have a medical condition that contributes to my weight gain. My anxiety medication can cause weight gain but I know how badly I have chosen to eat and how little I have exercised over the last year.

I want to glorify God in my whole life and that includes my body, my health, my eating choices.

And that is my why.

Look for blog posts with updates on my health and fitness journey and maybe someday in the future you’ll see me on a season of SURVIVOR.  😉